Saturday 6-8 let’s keep it as normal as possible

 I’m realizing how weird this whole situation is on so many levels.  I know i would tend to overthink it so maybe this will be helpful for my many friends.  Don’t be worried about what to say or getting upset or keeping your shit together when we see each other.  Letting your heart feel what it needs to feel is healing.  Don’t feel like you can’t bitch and complain about all the stuff we always have because now it seems so petty.  I want to still have those conversations. I want to hear about the pain in the ass vendor you got stuck next to or the rude customers.  The last thing I want is for people to feel bad about their lives being normal and mine being pretty much fucked.     It’s ok to cry and be sad with me too. And it’s ok to laugh and joke.     

We had a great zoom meeting with a Dr at Columbia yesterday. We spoke about some clinical trials but what I really loved about him was how positive he was. He also is going to do some further studies on the tumor because he said that  there’s a chance that the unmetholated result could be wrong.  That he’s seen different results almost 20% of the time!  It made me feel hopeful. His name is Dr Iwamoto and I will be speaking with him again.  

Nothing today or tomorrow. Radiation Dr Monday and Tuesday morning I have appointments at Sloan. 

Every one have a great weekend!  

With love, sunshine and gratitude always 

Jeanette do