Monday Morning of June 3rd

And I’m finally home!

 

Getting out of there yesterday was no easy task! There was issues with meds, issues with insurance cards, and, since I no longer possess any patient disposition, I was about ready to lose it. Jet waited with me all day. I don’t know what I would do without her. Trust me when I say that my brain tumor is affecting her brain drastically because she has to be the easygoing calm one now! This is a big shift for us and I know that I am a little stubborn... ok... a lot stubborn. The cognitive stuff is so dam hard to explain and deal with. It’s so weird how I interpret things now. Like what resonates in my brain throws me off. Case in point: when they finally sent a transport yesterday to wheel me out we had to first go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. He wheeled me in and, I shit you not, just outside in the hall there is a small string trio playing the song from the titanic while the ship was sinking! It was aweful and my brain could not take listening to it. Jet went to pull the car around, there’s more then one irate rude ass human also waiting on meds. The transport dude is nowhere to be found and I’m sitting in the middle of the room listening to the titanic sinking and various people being unpleasant and I’m not having it. I am walking out now so I don’t end up killing the chelloist! I am quite the sight right now. The eyesight sucks and my legs were feeling weak from being in bed for the last 4 days. I have a head full of stitches and I am hurting. But I make it through the lobby and outside. The sunshine feels good. Huh. Every car looks the same to me now and it was a zoo so I sat on a bench until jet beeped. She knew I wasn’t going to wait inside. 

I am so happy to be home and just puttering around the house being able to walk around do some things. We have some paperwork to do and lots of mail to get through. I honestly can’t explain how touched I am by all the cards, calls, gifts, and offers of support from everyone. I will reach out to all but here are a few things that madme smile this past week . It was a week of a lot of tears.

It was a real struggle holding it together. I cried a lot more than I wanted to. Of course my kids were all my rock this week and I am so proud of them all. Could not wait to get in my kitchen yesterday to get a pan on the stove with some fresh spinach from Polly’s garden and eggs for dinner! Coffee this morning in this wonderful mug my beautiful niece Kylie made me. She is so talented!

 

 This beautiful blanket gifted to me by someone I am sure I cooked for in a past life. He has one of the kindest hearts and look forward to cooking more for this beautiful couple.

This adorable boo boo card my niece Layne and nephew Tyler made with their Mama. And this sweet card sent from my childhood friend that I grew up with.

 

 Finally my dad made me laugh when he came over! He looked at Sophie and was like “look at this ape”!  Excuse me sir?? This is a bear!! Unfortunately though now that my brain is messed up I can’t unsee it!

I hope everyone has a great day!!!